"Bug baby..... you make me happy."
"Well, that's good. 'Cuz you need to be happy."
Did you know it was possible to erupt into an amazingly long fit of the giggles while singing Amazing Grace to a ten year old?
It's true. It can happen. Especially if while you're singing, he turns over and kisses your cheek, and then waves his hand and says "Continue" like he was granting you some life-changing favor.
And you know what? I think he was.
I've been struggling lately, a lot lately, with my inner demons. They are attacking me with a vengeance right now, affecting all areas of my life. Work is suffering, and home is definitely feeling the effects. Why is it, do you suppose, that when we need them the absolute most we have a tendency to push away those that lighten our hearts and our burdens? There is no good reason my son should have to bargain with me to sing to him at bedtime, and yet looking back....it appears that's what's been happening. So yeah. I suck.
But this kid.... this kid forgives me every time. With just a look, a hug, or a kiss on my cheek while I'm singing to him at bedtime. I have no idea what I did to deserve him, but I am so amazingly thankful that God has seen fit to continue to bless me with him; to continue to allow him to make me happy.
Because sometimes? I just need to be happy.