Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Nothing Beats a Belly Laugh To Cure Heartache

"Bug baby..... you make me happy."


"Well, that's good. 'Cuz you need to be happy."


Did you know it was possible to erupt into an amazingly long fit of the giggles while singing Amazing Grace to a ten year old?

It's true. It can happen. Especially if while you're singing, he turns over and kisses your cheek, and then waves his hand and says "Continue" like he was granting you some life-changing favor.

And you know what? I think he was.

I've been struggling lately, a lot lately, with my inner demons. They are attacking me with a vengeance right now, affecting all areas of my life. Work is suffering, and home is definitely feeling the effects. Why is it, do you suppose, that when we need them the absolute most we have a tendency to push away those that lighten our hearts and our burdens? There is no good reason my son should have to bargain with me to sing to him at bedtime, and yet looking back....it appears that's what's been happening. So yeah. I suck.

But this kid.... this kid forgives me every time. With just a look, a hug, or a kiss on my cheek while I'm singing to him at bedtime. I have no idea what I did to deserve him, but I am so amazingly thankful that God has seen fit to continue to bless me with him; to continue to allow him to make me happy.

Because sometimes? I just need to be happy.

8 comments:

Wonderful World of Weiners said...

You are a very good mom - you may not be perfect but if you were, you wouldn't be human.

Hallie :)

Flea said...

Your Bug loves you. For good reason. To the degree I can, I understand your demons. And it's evident that you're a good mom and wife. Your boys see that. Talk it out with Coach, SM. Talk it out here. We're here for ya.

Cecily R said...

You know I love you. And that I totally get you. E-mail me or call me. We'll talk. You may be surprised how well I get all of this...especially this month.

P.S. Bug is awesome. I just really, really like the kid. :)

Aimee said...

He sounds like such a neat kid. You're both very lucky to have each other.
xo

Slick said...

We always find strength to survive another day from the small acts of others...

It's amazing sometimes and most of us don't even realize when it happens.

You picked up on it quick...

It's the small things, girl....the small things.

Anglophile Football Fanatic said...

I've been feeling a little blue myself this week. Chin up. You're awesome.

Kidzmama said...

You know, maybe it's going around. I too feel like a crappy mom this week. Just getting by. Not doing the super mom thing. But for some reason my Happy says I'm the best mom ever. I guess three year olds don't have very high expectations.

You're human Sports Mama. And your family and friends love ya' for it.

Karen said...

I'm sorry it's been a rough month. Your kids are treating you with all the love and care you treat them, and it's wonderful to see that love in action.